Resignation

I don’t get it
I don’t get it at all
What is so great about life?

Sure, love
but also, cavities.
Of-course success,
but also struggles.
If it's all down to numbers
more cavities than love
more struggles than successes
and worst of the lot,
Dinners
ALONE
at midnight
heated in the microwave
unevenly;
a mouthful of cold chicken
with scolding hot rice.

What is really the big deal
if one word is erased
from a dictionary full of words
and what is so sacred
about any of this
if gods aren’t here
within us
or without.
Sure, friends
but also, hangovers.
of-course Mangoes,
but also, Waiting rooms
and in my experience
more hangovers than friends
more waiting rooms than mangoes.

If there really are others
I wish I could have met you
So, we could have understood each other
and what all of this means
but more silence than music
more solitude than solace.

-Karski